Still waiting... Countdown begins

I'm not very good at waiting for things. I get really irritable especially when I've been waiting too long already. I shouldn't really and it's also part of the process. Sometimes it doesn't seem like it's ever going to happen even if I know that it is. I think the excitement will hit soon! Although it's the flying that always takes so much longer than anything else or feels like it when your sat on that plane trying to sleep. There's also been a few plane disasters this year which hasn't helped anything although I really hope that everything goes alright - after all I am flying on Halloween! I guess that once I've checked in my luggage - and by luggage I mean a kayak, battled the way through security and immigration and found the gate, boarded and sat down I'll be happy. I remember last time flying to Delhi I only just got there in time and very nearly missed the flight!?! I do not want a repeat of that! And even then it's not all over! Eight and a half hours flying to Delhi - at least it's over night as I'll hopefully be able to sleep for the whole journey. Then have the chaos of having to get a connecting flight with only just over an hour between landing and take off. Fingers crossed everything goes alright! Once I'm on that second plane I'll be alright and will be excited about the next six months and the adventures that it will bring! 

Once I arrive I guess I'll be wishing I had my car, hot showers and my comfy double bed but actually I can live without them. I have done before and I will do again. Home is where ever I am located for whatever duration of time. I know I'm going to be in Nepal somewhere for around three months and again in India for around three months. So that's where home is going to be. Full of craziness, rafting, kayaking, laughter, adventure and the unknown and it's going to be awesome! 

I'll finally be reunited to my little pappu (or Paddy) the guy who stole my heart in a blink with his amazing smile. I was always cynical about love at first sight - it's not about the looks it's the personality. However he both has the looks and the personality and he is a great kayaker and raft guide.... what more could I want?! Maybe for him to grow a little so I could wear heels if I wanted (but who needs heels anyway? I hardly wear them so it's not going to make any difference!) 

It's like being on pause....

So when you spend a lot of time writing something and then done save it. It's one of the most annoying things that happens to me. It's my fault - or is it? I think this app should have an auto save feature for people like me.

Oh well these things happen. It's trying to remember what I was writing about. I was in one of those emotional days where everything and every emotion was being experienced. 

How to handle pre travel nerves. Are they really nerves or waves of excitement? Well it depends how you want to view them! (According to reversal theory anyway.... But I'm not going into that). I am just trying to ride the wave out and see where it leads me but am trying to not let it overwhelm me. It's a big event in my life - flying half way round the world mostly for a guy but also for amazing adventures and experiences. However my Nepalese man has stolen my heart and I'm intrigued to how it will go. Besides nothing ventured, nothing gained. I have nothing to loose it's just another one of my whirlwind adventures. It's not as if I haven't done this before. 

Emotions are good they help me push further to get to where I want to be. Saying that is one thing and when the slightest feeling of excitement comes along and it freaks me out a little bit. It's hard staying grounded. It's really not long 24 days. It's a little crazy to be honest. I'm ready though, it feels as if it has been a long time coming. I remember that feeling I had when I came home. That overwhelming feeling of not wanting to be here, not wanting to leave what I had. A beautiful surreal life full of happiness and breathtaking scenery. I didn't want to leave. Now I guess i'm just excited to be going.